play pretend

I had to sleep with you every night so I wouldn’t be alone with my thoughts

Together, we would pretend
to be happy, fun, and deep
until your breath softened and I knew you were asleep

Your life felt so happy, so calm
I kept myself too busy to think for too long

Maybe it was real
to some degree
but we had no real responsibility

Our love was summer camp
Pretend playing the people we wanted to be
It wasn’t reality

but you really did love me

If I had asked, would you have stayed with me?


I can’t see you being in my life again
but I’m so grateful you were then